Ye Can

Chapter 148 28

Lin Zixi and Ye Can told a story similar to "disaster for the country".

In the ancient oriental kingdom, there was an immature and stupid king who met a concubine who would ruin her life for the first time on a snowy night.

Lin Zixi rested her cheeks, her expression so indifferent, as if she was telling Ye Can an unimportant story.In the darkness, she looked at Ye Can's shining eyes and said softly, "I think that woman is a catastrophe for the king's life."

Like all cliché stories, the favorite concubine approaches the king with a purpose.She enjoyed the favor given by the king, but under coercion and deterrence, she stretched out her life-threatening claws and dragged the king into the abyss of destruction.

The relationship between them is like that in myths and legends between King Zhou of Shang and Daji, King You of Zhou and King Baosi.

For the sake of the so-called "love", the king could not die well in the end.

This is "disaster for the country".

Lin Zixi seemed to just want to confide, so he only said to Ye Can calmly: "In the story between me and Ye Can, she is the king, and I am the 'beloved concubine' who doesn't know what to do."

So in order to have an afterlife, after death, she lingered in Wangchuan for many years, and finally waited for the chance to meet again.

"I made a deal with God. As long as I am willing to be reincarnated, He will allow me to come back to this world with Ye Can. God made an agreement with me. As long as I can remember being with Ye Can after entering reincarnation, Just let us be together."

"So Ye Can and I met again in this world. It's just a pity that after my reincarnation, my memory was obliterated by the years, and then I forgot about her. I didn't think of this until two years ago."

Lin Zixi smiled lightly, and said lightly: "It's just a pity, this is an ordinary world, there are no gods and magic, and it can't even prove the existence of gods, so I can't prove the truth of all this."

"I can only think that I may be crazy. Or, this is just my imagination..."

In the dimly lit room, the blue light of the big screen projected on Lin Zixi's face, making her look even weaker.She raised her head, looked at Ye Can and said gently: "What is real? Memory, or everything I see before my eyes? Is it my delusion, or something in reality?"

"The more I want to seek the truth, the more confused I am? How should I break out of this vicious circle? Ye Can."

Looking at this woman with confusion and fragility written on her face, Ye Can felt as if her heart had been crushed, and she suddenly couldn't breathe.

Ye Can wanted to raise her hand, but in the end she pressed it patiently, leaning on the arm of the chair and sighing, "This is something you have to figure out for yourself. You have to choose and believe what you want to believe."

Ye Can finally understood where Lin Zixi's illness came from.Those chaotic memories, swirling between reality and fantasy, make people messy.

Everything that Lin Zixi said reminded Ye Can of what Dr. Yang and she said about her subconscious fabrications, and the same thing happened in her subconscious as in Lin Zixi's story.

Realizing this, Ye Can faintly looked forward to it.

She looked at Lin Zixi, and said solemnly: "If something like this really happened between you and Ye Can, then now should be the time for the rain to clear."

"Even if the hand of fate is pushing all of this, playing tricks on people at every key point, it still can't play tricks on your heart. The next thing you have to do is to choose."

"Choose your own heart and go on without hesitation."

Ye Can put his hand on the back of Lin Zixi's hand, gently held her hand, and said to her, "Even if you die the next moment, you have to live happily until you die."

Lin Zixi felt the warmth on the back of his hand, and responded to Ye Can's words: "If I sink because of sadness, and never recover from it, wandering in the abyss of despair, I will be tricked by fate, right?"

Ye Can nodded, and Lin Zixi let go of the hand she was holding, and put his backhand in touch with her palm: "The reason why fate is like this is probably because it wants me to cry out of sadness, open my wounds and watch my embarrassment It’s unbearable, and it makes the audience either sad or happy, right?”

"If I really didn't exist in this world, but as I guessed, I might be the person in the story, so I can't give in to this, right?"

Ye Can clasped her hand and shook her head: "It's not like that, it's not just like that."

"Even if you are indulging in sadness, even if you are in embarrassment, these are your own emotions. It is only other people's business if others want to watch and have fun."

Ye Can's speech speed gradually increased: "People live, whether it is true or false, they always exist in the eyes of others. They are observed, discussed, disseminated, and distorted."

"But that exists in the eyes of others, and most importantly, your own opinion. It is your own business to do what you do and how to do it when you are not hurting others. Only in this way can you find your own existence itself."

"It's like, this story is the same for you. It may be a 'disaster for the country' to others, but what is it like for you? Are you a bystander, or are you in it?"

In the darkness, Ye Can's voice was so clear.It is like a bell ringing in the night mist, guiding the lost travelers to return home.

Lin Zixi had a little understanding, she replied softly: "For me, for me..."

At this moment, everything about the past and the present was endlessly tumbling in Lin Zixi's mind, making her heart agitated.Those little details of the past are so vivid that she can't tell the truth from the fake.

Only the pain of losing Ye Can every time seemed so real in my heart.

Depression, difficulty, sadness, sadness...all eroded Lin Zixi's nerves.

Lin Zixi bit her lower lip, her eyes were full of sadness: "For me... that's my whole life..."

"It was my love...it was my hate...it was my longing through many sleepless nights..."

"That's not a story..."

"That's I love you, Ye Can."

Ye Can didn't know whether the last title was for her or for their past.But at this moment, Ye Can felt that he was inexplicably recognized.

She held Lin Zixi firmly, and said softly to her, "You still remember... as long as you remember, Ye Can exists in your heart. As long as she still exists, I will have a way to bring her to you .”

Ye Can leaned his head against Lin Zixi's forehead, and said softly, "Lin Zixi, don't worry, I will return your Ye Can to you."

Lin Zixi closed her eyes, clasped Ye Can's fingers forcefully, and shook her head vigorously.

No, it doesn't need to be like this, she knows that her Ye Can has already returned.What they lack is just a "start over".

But they all know that when the memory is not equal, no one can speak and say that sentence.

Even if they can't speak, maintaining the status quo is already a great thing for them.Rather, their reunion was a miracle.

If there are so-called miracles in this world, then every encounter between them is considered a miracle.

With light in her eyes, she wiped away her tears with her index finger, and sobbed, "Actually... I don't know why, but I told you these inexplicable things today."

She continued to speak on her own: "Maybe I want to see you too much, but every time I see you, it doesn't feel right. I hope you can remember countless times, but you can't."

"It's as if you are Ye Can, but you are not Ye Can."

"I feel sad, but at the same time glad you're alive."

"In front of you, I can't deceive my heart, because I do love you. Even now, it's the same. Because I love you, I hate this impermanent fate."

Ye Can nodded: "I understand how you feel." She couldn't understand it very well, because even she herself hated her memory loss.

Lin Zixi wiped away her tears, and forced a smile at Ye Can: "But I can't continue like this, right? If I continue like this, I won't be able to get better in the future, so I need to change, and I want to be honest with you."

She sighed softly, and said to Ye Can, "I still love you, and at the same time, I greedily want the memories between us, and at the same time, I also want to create more beautiful things to be with you."

Lin Zixi looked at Ye Can solemnly: "So Ye Can, can I have a hope?"

Ye Can hesitated for a while, and said to Lin Zixi, "Hope may be despair, if you don't mind, of course it's okay."

Lin Zixi smiled, and said to Ye Can: "So, can we meet in the future? If you don't come to me, I can come to you, right?"

Ye Can nodded: "Of course you can do this? We were friends before, weren't we?"

Lin Zixi thought about his words, and said to Ye Can, "You know, not just friends. I won't... treat you as a substitute, you have never been a substitute."

"The reason why I approach you is not only because you are the same person, but because Ye Can is you, and you are Ye Can. It feels a little different, but it has the same thing...you understand what I mean, right?"

Ye Can nodded: "I can understand."

Ye Can continued: "This world makes people feel very lonely, but when I'm with you, I don't feel lonely. You are the only person in the world who can connect with me."

Lin Zixi smiled, pointed to her heart, and said to Ye Can, "Before I met you, there was always an open space here."

"Even if I have friends and my own hobbies, I can't fill this empty space."

"This is the loneliness that everyone is born with. Only after meeting you, it has never been empty. As long as I think of you, the world will no longer be empty. I... will never feel lonely again .”

Lin Zixi stared at Ye Can, and said word by word: "Using 'lover' to describe you is sometimes too frivolous, but I don't think it's serious enough."

"Only calling your name—Ye Can, is enough to show how precious you are in my life and deep in my soul."

"You are the one I can't lose...Ye Can."

"I wouldn't be able to live without you, Ye Can."

Lin Zixi's confession was so enthusiastic that Ye Can was stunned for a moment.She stared blankly at the other party, and said after a while, "But if you die for love, then I really won't exist."

Ye Can continued: "I think that one day I lose you, and I will live well. You will live in my heart, always well..."

"The most terrible thing about death is: never seeing you again, never remembering you again."

"I don't want to be like this, so I want to live well. I think you should do the same. Live well, with me in your heart, until death really comes."

Lin Zixi had a different opinion. She smiled and said to Ye Can, "But that would be too much torture. Ye Can, I've had enough torture."